Jun/090
Being Unemployed, Is it really a bad thing?
This morning was going to be such a great morning. My allergies were not bothering me yet and sun was out. The drive to work was enjoyable. Even the first few minutes of my day had been going well, that is until my boss called me to the conference room. It did not take me long to figure out what was going on. People usually only get called to the conference room for one reason and this time my card was up.
I was informed that I was being let go and that they would pay for the remainder of the day. Typically I would have expected a flood of emotions to be coursing through my head. I was amazingly calm. I said okay, and proceeded to my desk so that I could pack up the very few things I actually cared to take home with me. I walked out the door.
The minute my foot hit the asphalt there was a sigh of relief. By all accounts my life should be crumbling into tiny little pieces right now. But for some odd reason I feel almost reborn. I really loved my job, I made many good friends and enjoyed the company of pretty much everyone in the office. But what I think it boiled down to for me was how I felt on the inside. The last few months I have felt somewhat held back by my job. I would not say that I was burned out. I still enjoyed every day. But I know that I’m far too qualified to be doing the work I was assigned. And over the past year It had become more and more apparent that there was really no room for growth. Now please do not get me wrong. I’m not bitter and this situation is not the making of anyone specific above me. It’s just that It’s a very small company that focuses on very specific tasks. The few people who do have an edge on what is actually going on prefer to keep it that way. as it is in their best interest to do so.
This is what really made the job hard for someone like me. I am always looking to learn something, innovate, or be a part of something. But its really hard to do that when every assignment is a need to know basis. Training is reserved for only those in positions of authority who then tend to delegate it to those below them who had never been given any formal training and left to just “figure it out.” Fortunately, I was pretty good at figuring it out and it was those few moment when I felt that my job was actually a challenge.
So needless to say I’m in the job market again. I have already found a few prospects, and it hasn’t even been a day yet. I really hope I can find a career that both interests and challenges me. Something that helps me better myself and allows opportunities for advancement.
I would really like to take a little time to catch my breath and evaluate what I want to do in life. Unfortunately life does not afford such a luxury. So I will make the best of the days to come and take everything in stride. Even as tough as our economy is. I know that I am valuable. I know that no matter what happens I will find a way. Most importantly I know I have the support of my friends and family. Is that not all that really matters?
Where am I?
